I'm Ambiguous, yet.

  I am already a grade 10 student, yet I still don't know what my dreams are, is that bad? is it already too late? will I still have a future? I've asked that to myself, and It answered, "If fate wants you to be indecisive, fate will then decide for you, you just have to make it." Then I realized, it's still not enough, I can't decide if I know less, this knowledge that I appreciate and they gave, I have to struggle to have more. But will it make me happy? My dad told me, "pick a course that you will not regret picking, a course that will give you joy and still happy to picked it after a long time.", and I should.

  For now, appreciating beautiful novels or stories is what I find fun, and also studying. After reading El Filibusterismo, I was amazed that how the Author wrote, how a Filipino can do such a thing, it's not that I doubt Filipinos, I was just ignorant I guess. And that is the problem with me, being ignorant, that's why I can't decide what course will I take, and what kind of dream should I dream. I had been thinking about these kind of stuffs since grade 8.

  My family, always suggests me to become a Soldier, a Businessman, an It, Seaman, a Nurse. But I never really know the purpose of those, and what do they do, they never told me, also in School, they never taught me such things, and they expect me to answer on what will I become in the future, why am I so ignorant? Here I am, studying so that I'll know what I'll choose that I will never regret choosing it. 

  For now, I would like to be a writer and a Philosopher, since just by reading such beautiful work of Rizal, I've been influenced easily. But sadly, only a little part of 2 subjects teaches us on how to write. But, I believe, whenever they made us do poems, I'm pretty good at it. I really love to have a happy life someday, but can't let dreams be dreams, I have to go to school.

  I also believe that for every man created, there is a future awaits him/her. And I'm like that, for now I have a dream, but not that big, but I believe this will become bigger and bigger as time passes, and there is a future for me, a superb future, maybe it has been made, I just can't see it, but I shouldn't, where's the fun in that? Maybe tomorrow, my dream will be to discover the world's secrets or truth, maybe I really thought of that as a dream. I shouldn't really worry about it, since I have so much time.

  We have so much time, It is up to us to use it properly or waste it.

source of image: https://www.hormonesmatter.com/wp-content/uploads/2017/06/not-knowing.jpg

To us, 117 years from now.

  I thought of that as a normal day, since it's my 4th time celebrating such event, the foundation day. It's just amazing that it is already its 117th one. So many preparations had been made, many efforts, and sweat, so I thought it would have been selfish if I don't go. It's the day when the school was found, and I love my school. Maybe it wasn't that normal, was it?

  I woke up early, time? still good. I could still watch some contents I thought, but actually my body is excited to dance, though most of us didn't like that for a field demo. Then, I took a nice bath, put on my korean style outfit, then went straight to school. But man, I would really loved to dance more if Joachim was there, but she had a contest again, I wished her luck. I got in my room, and there I saw boys taping their sticks, girls doing salon stuffs lol, but we were ready for the parade and ready to get that discipline award. 

  The parade was long, but we didn't get tired, it was a fun walk, we tried to be disciplined as an owl, but who won the discipline award seemed more disciplined. What I also love about the parade was when we got to shout our yell again, "Martinelli!, Shinzou Sasageyo" not sure about the spelling but it means Give your Hearts Martinelli! 

  Then we waited for hours before the Field-Demo, we were gonna lose anyway, since our performance or theme is not suited for field-demo. But it wasn't about winning or losing it's about how we perform for the event, how we should appreciate the school, and how we love it. But most of us were mad because of how long the awarding was. There, the field-demo started, I believe it's almost 3pm that time, there the ending or closing of our grade 10 boys performance, we raise all our white flag, and I thought it was a surrender, haha. But still it was good dancing my favorite type of dance, which is Hip Hop, but sadly Joachim, wasn't there, I was sad like 10% lol.

  I hope that next Foundation Day, more activities will be made to not bore students during awarding. As much as I hate the awarding, we actually won 4th Best Ndep Corner, and Cleanest Greenest section, Congrats again Matinelli! I hope also that there will be all kinds of booths, it's more fun that way, I believe.

  

Last High School Day From Junior High School, I guess.

source of image 1: Shane Ashley Abero, from Markov

source of image 2: Yours truly, taken by Charlotte Patubo from Markov